Rindu

Dah lama tak blogging kan? Tetiba rindu bila nampak toolbar blog i (hehehe)

So today i would like to share my passion towards song. Recently i'm listen to Cher Lloyds & Jai McDowall (of course The Fray too). Both of them has a good talent from X factor (i gesss...)

 

Love their voice~

B.R.O.G.A

 i love blue sky as i love green field

FEBRUARY 1st 2012

Who are you?

Today i guess is the lowest self esteem that i have. Why? Who am I? 24 years & 2 months i been alive still haven't discovered my self? Still haven't met Mr Right... Still haven't know what you should be. Still haven't know your path, still doesn't know who you are. What you like. What you doesn't like. Are you dare to speak out loud? Are you really know who you are right now? Are you satisfied?

NO!!!!

To whom should i scream? To whom should i tell?

To Allah?
How?

It still the same since i was cried to have someone to accompany me. To teach me how to get close to YOU...

Am i sound like i have no iman? Yes, i'm not strong... I just want something@someone to keep me up when i'm weak.

What is it, Allah??

Show me the path...

Malaysia Open - Chong Wei Semi Final

Hari ni, tetiba lepas basuh baju dan tengah mandi. Housemate tetiba sawan nak pergi Stadium Putra tengok Chong Wei lawan untuk semi final.

Dengan tergopoh gapah (ada lebih kurang dari 1 jam untuk bersiap & makan tengahari), bersiap la ala2 selekeh. memang selekeh dan tak sempat pon sidai baju.

Perlawanan Chong Wei mula malam, sebenarnya tergopoh nak beli tiket. Nasib baik ada lagi.

Perlawanan Chong Wei awesome!!!

Happiness comes from passion

Hari ni, boleh dikatakan sepanjang hari aku asyik tersengih. Something special came out? YES. haha

Last night i couldn't sleep because too much think of it. My boy that i admire message me for offering a DSLR camera. Yes, i have a simple negotiation with him. Early before, 1st Jan, Daus (black metal boy y alim) also offered me DSLR camera with interesting price (both of them know i love picturing n camera). And based on both offer, i more interested to Daus. And we had discussed on that.

POP!!! Agreed to sold to me. Wau, macam tak percaya. cepatnya. Tomorrow make a payment (i paid half) and in a week i will get the camera. Next month i will pay the balance. Sound so simple like you guys afraid of been cheated or not? Okay I believe to Daus la in this case.

Am I too early to share this? I think 'ya' but I couldn't stand. HEHEHE

Inspiration of my passion

I'm not active blogger, and i start blogging in early 2009. Quite rare i'm post something. But i do love some bloggers. Its various type of interest.

In the end of 2010, I don't know why suddenly I love vintage dress. At some point I dream of become a dress tailor. Its crazy, I have degree in Business of Insurance.

I google picture of vintage dress, dream of wearing it.. sew it.. photograph it. various passion. From that, I found my favorite blogger. I had bookmark her page so i can just visit it anytime i like.

Its The Clothes Horse , host by beautiful Rebecca.

I really admire most of her dress, jacket, shoe, bag, her style and her photo. Its all complete of my passion. I guess she is so lucky. She travel almost around the world and being icon (she like celebrity).  I was like dreaming to be like her. I love every her shooting place, it is gorgeous!!

And, there has an agenda too. I was trying to improve my English (hehe). It is the fun way though, and i like it. 

So, that's all I wanna share today because I was thinking, why I'm back to actively blogging. I have my passion to share.

Showing feeling & thought

I was bored & lonely girl.

With nothing to do in weekend... and alone.

I think i should take a move to make my self happy, so draw something to show my emotion (even i got no talent).

So, this is it.... THE FRAY~

I love all of Fray song... and I'm feeling in love with Isaac Slade. (hehehe)

07.01.2012 birthday mak

hi...

first post for 2012 (^_^)*

Today is my mom birthday, just text her (she must had sleep).

Hope we (mom's children) could make you happy to the end. I felt very lucky to have you in this world. You the only one who knows me better than others...

I know, i might not really good as a daughter.. but i really hope that you're not regret to gave birth of me. Hope your dreams come true and your strength will encourage me and give spirits to survive.

You are my unsung hero~

13.12.11 ~ cofession

it's been a long times since my last update.

not because i have no idea, but i'm too busy with something i'm not sure. maybe more to stalk someone.

the story is on beautiful date, 13 12 11.... i have no intention on this date. It so suddenly being crazy.

I admit to that young boy i like him.

I was so nervous, that was my first time confess to a guy. and shame....

But he is good guy, i felt warm & comfort after that... such a release of a burden.

that night to a few days after, my eye being such easy to cry...

It so sad to know the truth that he is belong to others.

I'm okay now. But its not going to be easy to find a good guy like him & to forget him either.

Wish that we still can be a good friend.

11.11.11 FRIDAY

Today is the last day Firdaus at AIA. Hope everything goes fine there. Thanks for everything in such a 'great less than 2 months' with you & handle dell together, angkut my CPU, sharing email, kept company me jalan balik kerja last friday, ticket train & many more that i might left behind :)

My Gloomy Day

Hari ini rasa sangat sedih dan kesunyian. Tahap kesihatan tak berapa baik, dah dua report hantar kat Mak. Tapi tak balas pon mesej ke... call ke... Hati rasa sedih, bagai tak dipeduli.

Sudah lah raya kali ini paling tak seronok sepanjang hidup aku ni. Mungkin aku terlalu berharap raya ini sempurna, padahal.......... Bila berlaku tak seperti yang kita rancang, hati lagi pedih. Lebih baik tak berharap apa-apa.

Aku merungut?? Tak, cuma meluah rasa. Tak ada orang atau peduli hati kecil aku ni.

Tapi mungkin kot Mak sibuk.

Perlu ke aku bagi tau kepada yang berkenaan raya aku tak seronok sebab perangai dia tu?? Atau perlukah aku terus maafkan dia?

Aku boleh, kalau hati aku ni tak suram macam ni.

Sebelum Syawal habis, aku harap aku dapat rasai lagi raya yang seronok.... Amin

i'm not superwoman

Am I looks like superwoman?? hehe.. I like blocking colour but i'm not aware of this superman shirt colour till i look at my photo back. Shame on me.

Long time i left this blog without new post. So, why not this time.

here...

I fall in love. to a boy. that belong to other. younger than me. which i expect he might be a type of 'playboy'. just because i think he is adorable. which the one that i want. that i think he know. but i never tell. he look good with her. which kept me jealous. i want to cry. i remember him. almost all time. dear Allah, help me. to forget him. if he doesn't belong to me. tell me. that he such a good person. that i ever known. so i know. there is more man out there. are good. like him. which meant to be mine.

:) thanks to hear

accessories

It has been a month i haven't update my blog. So, to update my recent activity, I post this... which an accessory that i excited to have and share at the same time with you guys.

Its owl, which i'm a little bit crazy of it since i got an owl key chain from my sister. Which she bought at Sabah.



Its cute isn't it? hehehe. I was thinking of having an accessories, which i'm not really care before. So wait for the next!!!

unemployed + lonely = DownDownDown

Today is the 15th days i have been unemployed. And my motivation is really-really down. Feeling lonely, left alone in house everyday... No one to talk... its driving me insane, totally... I dont know whether i could stand with this for how long.

There has one boy, i really attracted to him. He is younger than me. But i like him in the way he is. Unfortunately, he had a girlfriend.. much better in all way than me. He can make me calm and smile... and support me to get a new job.

But recently, he looks like to ignored me. It make me sad, and if i could... i really want to tell him that i miss him so much. But... did he care??

I think, until next week still haven't get any job offer, i would like to travel... Back to Malacca, join Tunas Mekar... Never back home before i success. Pray for me.

moving to my new (rent) house

Last two days actually, we were moving to our new house. Very nice house, i love it actually but its still messy with our unmanaged stuff. We sign tenant agreement at (less or more) 7.00p.m and mop the floor and etc at 8.30p.m


Transfer our stuff then, it finish at 12.00a.m. I take a bath at 1.00a.m.



Introducing my new house


Tara tat tara....

Our house owner really loves that flowery...




Kiblat sign




before moping

Oh, we are not having our dinner yet actually. So tired and so hungry!! Having out late dinner at 1.30a.m.


WHAT?? 1.30a.m??? Not good to my diet, its ruin everything!!


What we ate? Hm...



Lets see...

1 large manggo juice, 1 large apple juice and watermellon juice (too big)
(i don't know how to rotate picture, i'll do that when i know, huhu)

Sweet like apple is me, sour like manggo is her (too greedy)







Kerabu mangga (not really good like mine)







Sweet sour beef (not really good like fish)







Puyuh goreng kunyit (i like it but a little bit oily)






Tom yum Ayam (too many onion)






rice (too...... ??)




&




Me (too fussy)

That too many for late dinner, we would not be able to finish it. Plus the our juice is too LARGE glass and i'm on diet.



but...



Guess what, WE FINISH IT.....!!!!! That all dish has be eaten by three person only!! HoHoHo.. Till the last drop!!!



We take our time to go home becauso too full to walk.



2.30a.m
At home!!!


Sleep~~ good enough to make me bigger!!

and i'm really sleepy at the office then





last but not least

My autograph....

i wish to have this

CANON Rebel XS, my dream camera at this moment.. Love it!!!

Oh, i love picture a lot. There are many thing i wish in this world, unfortunately i know i can't have all of it. But this time, i really wish to have this. To get from someone is impossible (but i still hoping, heh3) thus i plan to have a lot of saving.

My salary is not much, but i still hope in next 3 0r 4 months i can buy it. Ough, that need a lot of sacrifice here.

Why i wish it so much? I don't have a good carrier, no boyfriend (almost), so I think this my gula2 jiwa. CANON Rebel XS, wait for me, ya!!!

kau dekat aku tapi jauh

Dulu, sedih sangat bila jauh dengan kau. rasa menyesal sebab mulakan sengketa antara kita. Aku fikir kau memang suka meminggirkan aku bila ada kawan-kawan kau. Aku ambil langkah asingkan diri kalau itu yang terbaik untuk kau dan aku.
Tapi, masa berlalu... Aku mula fikir itu semua salah aku, menghukum kau walaupun kau dah jelaskan keadaan sebenar.
Dan kau dan aku kembali berbaik kemudiannya. Ya, aku bahagia. Setiap detik aku ingatkan diri aku sendiri kebaikan kau. Jadi, kemesraan kembali terjalin.
Hari ni, kau kembali ke perangai lama kau. Ya, memang kau baik orangnya tapi satu aku tak suka (walaupun sebenarnya ada beberapa), kau tak pernah (atau mungkin aku tak sedar) pikirkan tentang aku setiap masa (macam aku selalu terpikirkan kau).
Kau tau tak, setiap cerita gembira dan sedih aku cuma untuk kau. Tapi kau, cerita sedih kau untuk aku, cerita gembira kau untuk orang lain.
Dan hari ni, keputusan kau tak menyebelahi aku. Aku tak dipeduikan macam yang pernah aku rasa suatu masa dulu. Kau dan perangai kau.
Baik, teruskan kau dengan perangai kau tu. Untuk makluman, harini aku menyesal untuk entah untuk kali yang keberapa aku menyesal kerana memilih untuk bergantung kat kau.
Aku akan masih disini tapi aku akan belajar hidup tanpa kau. Biar nanti kau akan sedar kau makin kehilangan aku (sendiri)

hi blogwalker

okay, that is just like nerd post. I hate it. Actually i like to thanks all the blogwalker that had drop by at my page. I'm sorry if i'm not visit your site, that is inpurpose. Its like account suspended or something (I dont know). Plus, i have to get busy with report that i should periodically update with my advisor.

Today, its TenTenTen = my Tension day!!!

And, I'm sorry for what i had done wrong...

gila farmville

Ya, memang aku tengah gila main game farmville kat facebook sekarang ni. Tapi tu tak ber makna aku gila sampai nak meng"edit" gambar ni...






Yang pasti, disebabkan kegilaan aku, aku dah wat pic ni jadi profile pic aku (jangan jeles aa)
nak buat macam mana, aku memang tak suka tayang muka, (hehe) jadi aku taruk la gambar ni. Senang sikit aku nak add jiran ladang baru (kekekeke)
Yep, aku pon tak percaya bila nampak susu ni kat pasaraya tu, terus tangkap cepat-cepat tanpa sempat ejas cahaya bagai. Aku suka nak tayang yang AKU PUNYA picture ni...haha

Raya post

I dont know what to say about this raya. Part i like but part of it i'm not liking so much. Its about me, i felt weird thing... So don't like about few things. Why i felt like that, i even don't know.
Somebody that i shouldn't hate ruined my mood from starting Ramadhan, but for Syawal I wish the best. Unfortunately, somebody just sellfish... so i hate him.
I still enjoy my Raya with my schoolmates. I dont like my guest and few other...(hey, what is wrong with you Atiq??).
I'm pretending to be cool...

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